I’m so blessed to introduce you to another guest contributor! (Don’t forget I’m looking for your articles, if you have something special you want to share send me a message and we’ll see what you can do.) Dawn blogs at Oh Sweet Mercy and you should really go check it out! Thank you Dawn for reminding us about grace in all things!
Ever hear God tell you something that you just don’t want to do? Maybe it’s something that completely goes against your nature, or what you’ve always assumed is your nature. What do you do? You only have two choices…obey or disobey. God always leaves the choice up to us, and loves us no matter which we choose. But, like any loving father, He is pleased when we choose wisely.
A few weeks ago, I attended a ladies “tea” at the most adorable lake house I’ve ever been to. It just screamed Pinterest everywhere you looked! The lady that lives there is very artsy and really did amazing things with all kinds of stuff. I’d like to think that if I had the time, I could do that too. I’ll just leave that thought hanging, because otherwise a lovely dream will crumble into dust.
There was a lovely lady who was speaking and playing her violin, Janet Shell. I met her last year, just after I had decided to start learning to play the violin. She has such a heart for God and worship! It was a beautiful day to gather by the lake for some fellowship and ministry, especially in that adorable, peaceful setting. I went expecting to be refreshed.
As God would do things, of course, I got more than refreshing. God threw out a challenge…one of those things I described above. Something I don’t want to do, if I’m going to be totally honest. And, something that goes against my very nature. What did He say?
“Meet with Me at 5 a.m.”
I’m sure for many of you, 5 a.m. is no big deal. It may even be “sleeping in.” But for me, well…let’s just say that if I could get away with it, I would be up until three or four in the morning and sleep until noon…or so. I can’t remember the last time I’ve done that though, having kids has this way of redefining your life. I have been getting up at 5:30 or so most days for a while anyway, so what is thirty minutes earlier? Well, it’s not easy. But, I’ve been doing it for the most part. Getting up, anyway. As far as feeling cognizant enough to meet with God…well, I’m still working on that.
I was encouraged by knowing that, in the Bible, the number five represents grace. Lord knows I need grace to get up early. It can also represent redemption, preparation and is always part of a whole. The Lord also knows my time needs redeemed, I need to prepare for the day ahead, and I can’t get through the day without Him.
God asked me to do something almost a year ago that I did not want to do – go gluten free. I sulked about that for days. Eventually, I complied and once I realized that focusing on what I could eat instead of what I couldn’t, my attitude improved tremendously. As a result, I have enjoyed better health and learned new ways of cooking and eating that I might not otherwise have ever tried. God always knows the benefit of whatever He asks us to do, even though we often can’t see. I guess that’s why it’s called “blind faith.”
To be very real with you, I’ve realized in the last day or two that I had completely unrealistic expectations of what my morning meetings with God were going to be like. It hasn’t been a ** POOF YOU ARE HEALED OF YOUR NOCTURNAL WAYS ** kind of experience. I haven’t been transformed into the perfect housewife, flitting about my day doing good and performing domestic miracles. Honestly, I’m doing good to stay awake most days. Like nearly everything else God does in my life, it’s a process and I need to learn to enjoy it. Choose to enjoy it. But, at that time of the morning the only choice my flesh wants to make is to snuggle back down in my cozy bed and go back to sleep.
One morning, I was telling God “I’m not a morning person, You know that!” Know what His reply was?
“Why do you keep saying that? You get what you speak…”
Then I thought of all the past thirty-some years that I have said “I’m not a morning person”. If I had a nickle for every time I’ve said that I’d have a nice, fat bank account by now. So, I have resolved to not say that anymore. I’m not “there” yet to be able to say I am a morning person, because that feels like a big fat lie, but if you’re at least not going backwards, that’s progress…right?
The last few mornings have been rough. I feel like giving up, to be honest. I mostly don’t feel really awake until noon, so that’s even more time to be up feeling like a zombie every day. “Where is the grace, God?” I want to ask. And I have. The grace is in the fact that I am getting up, without my husband waking me up. As I continue to press in and press onward, He will give me the grace I need to be conscious, to have a conversation with Him, to receive instructions for the day and the ability to carry them out. Getting up at five is just one step in the process. Getting up with joy in my heart, well…I’m working on that!
In all my years of following the Lord, I have learned the hard way that it is always best to do what He says, even when you don’t feel like it. Even when you don’t understand why. He knows why He has asked you to do that thing you don’t want to do. Sometimes He reveals it, but often He asks us to just trust Him. He loves you with all His heart and only has good in mind for you. The best thing to do is say “Yes, Lord” and trust Him to work out the details, because His grace is sufficient..even at that unholy hour of the day!
For I know what plans I have in mind for you,’ says Adonai, ‘plans for well-being, not for bad things; so that you can have hope and a future. When you call to me and pray to me, I will listen to you.When you seek me, you will find me, provided you seek for me wholeheartedly;
Jeremiah 29:11-13, CJB
Dawn @ohsweetmercy.com is a wife and homeschooling mom of a lovely teenage daughter and very spirited five year old son. She is also blessed with three grown up stepsons and two grandchildren. Faith, family and food are her passions…along with writing, photography and riding the Harley with the love of her life. Attending a Nourishing Our Children seminar opened her eyes to the realities of our industrial food system and she strives to prepare real, whole, nourishing foods for her family with a limited budget. Her motto is “doing the best you can with what you have is better than doing nothing at all.”